Will I .....

Alone, I lie at night
Thoughts ...
Tumbling ...
Falling ...
Like race horses
Cascading ...
My thoughts are a-jumble,
My heart beating painfully against my

I am beautiful
I am loyal
Yet nobody see's

I am but one
Yet never alone
My thoughts and broken heart fight
Like broken dogs
Dominating my life

I am but a moment ...
Yet I am forever
Here today ...
Gone forever ...

Why ... why ... why ...
Did God take my husband
Take my heart ...
Why did God leave me open and vulnerable to hungry vultures
Searching and seeking every pound of flesh from me

Oh God .... where are you in my storm?